I am the first

I am the first to admit:

I might have a darker side.

I might be a vampire. Yea, I vamp others in order to fulfil my hidden desires.

I might act as a manipulator. I unconsciously manipulate others in other to feel some fulfilment of my hidden needs.

I might act as an abuser. I have acted as an abuser before because I needed to satisfy desires seeking others approval disregarding their will.

I might been a liar to achieve easily what I honestly could achieve.

I sometimes use the easiest way to achieve what I want. No worthy here.

The first step is to recognise the thoughts holding the darker self. This way there is space, room and conscious intelligence to change! And the power lies on change.


To Give up for better!

Give up is good, it gives me space, allows me to breath into new dimensions.

To give up from concepts that no longer serve me.

To be brave to identify the beliefs that no longer hold a space in my heart and by opposition are starting to be an intruded in that pure field.

I had a very strong childhood belief that I had to get rid of.

Family, my family and the definition of family.

You know how I did it? I wrote a letter why I no longer want to belong to my Family.

Why? The family I thought I once had did not accept me. Or did not embrace the values of family I am aspiring for. One of them is Acceptance. I never felt accepted by the family I supposed I had.

What Now? I quick from belonging to a family.

I aspire to be in a family that naturally accepts me.

I am grateful for being cared for my relatives but no longer I see them as members of my Family. There is nobody on my family now. Later one someone will enter my life to fulfil the true definition of family I have in my core values.

I had to tell I give up from being son and a brother. Because I never feel accepted in this dynamic. I see them as my relatives but not family. My family is entirely another dimension of being around those that unconditionally love me. Love that I never found when I thought they were my family. I struggle a lot of time to fit in and I did not realise that there is no “adjustment of self”. There is only self acceptance and natural love for who I already am.

I will send a letter and talk directly to those relatives. Cords established with them within this field will be cut and erased. I will no longer hold a space as a member of that Family, only love for them as relatives.


To be out of this “burden” allows me space to create the self, to be the self and evolve naturally. I don’t get stuck in patterns of beliefs that no longer serve me. I identify them, destroy them and raise above. I am very contemplative performing meditation to align with my self on taking the steps to quit this energy as healthy and naturally as possible.

This is a new process for me and very challenging as I am dealing with years of childhood and programming, for that reason I am particularly aware of any change in my energy that soon I predict to be at the is best.



Unconscious thoughts

Power is within!

We don’t know what we are manifesting if our unconscious thoughts are not acknowledge. If we think thoughts unconsciously means that they are deep engrained in our mind and constitutes a potent weapon for manifestation. For instance if a Star Model has a desire for show the beauty she/he finds on himself and since a child thinks “I am proud of my beauty and expression” it shall manifest to be a successful supermodel through photography models and the same pattern occurs for an homeless who thinks himself unworthy of a shelter. As a rule it is manifested throughout all his homeless life until the unconscious thought is recognised and changed. He can receive in form of food, clothes and a bed but never to change a thought because the power for change relies on self.

Thoughts are blueprints for manifestation.

Thoughts and manifestation are interconnected. Both conscious thoughts and unconscious develop a special role for what happens to life. If you reveal your unconscious thoughts you might find a darker side of self but once recognised and “brought up to the light” you can reenergise such thoughts that were influencing life in an hidden way to aligned frequencies. Good thoughts to be replaced are those with Gratitude energy, as this frequency works as a foundation for all we are thankful in the now. Amusement is also a great base point!

Remind your self that life is a photocopy of thoughts both negative and positive & thoughts are energy.

Do Nurture yourself.


Dreams: Ready or not here I come

Pay attention to a conversation with my fellow inner self:

To Follow dreams and wishes is heavy,

disgusting, hard, brings anxiety,

it would look better to not follow dreams,

wishes and wants,

because they take effort, fight, suffer and grief.

What are those kind of feelings emerging

from following dreams?

What a ‘fed up bullshit’!

Dreams are made to be easy to achieve.

No, I am saying that following dream is an illusion,

it could be something good but is an illusion.

Dreams are a world created for fantasy and magic.

Now… Reality is: You don’t follow your dreams.

Reality is you stick up to the messy and busy life

you live and get hold of it as much as you can

because your survival depends on that.

Dreams are a fairy tale you believed as child.

Wake up and go to work your wonder ‘asshole’!

How sad are you ?


Illusion and believable thoughts

Regarding wishes, aspirations and dreams!

Sometimes I am empty of hope, other times I am full of dreams.

I have accomplish my dreams, I have felt deceived by thinking they are just “dreams”.

I been led to believe magic world of fulfilment is nonsense and reality is a created concept of scarcity and struggle. Until I grew up and realised how dreams can become a reality.

I believe in my dreams everyday until the day they come true.

When I wonder why I still resist sometimes in following my hopes I remind myself of the reason why I thought them as a lie and is because of programmed thoughts I have adopted throughout my life.

To believe in dreams is the new world. Deposit trust and hope in our own beliefs. To identify and eliminate those thoughts telling “I can’t”, “I am not worthy of” or “there is not enough for me” is crucial to create new ones.

New Dimension of Self

This new dimension of self look at dreams and wishes as a command to execute. Our thinking is now programmed to fulfil our desires. Self thoughts like “I am worthy to achieve my wishes, desires and aspiration” and “deposit hope and trust in the process” is allowing the dreams to manifest. Create space in mind to embrace new frequencies and thought forms that will emerge in a new shift. Look at your reality with abundance everywhere! It is enough for everybody and especially for you!

Also believe that time is an illusion concept man made, keep that in mind “you are always on time”!

This new thought pattern about dreams and aspirations will help the self manifest in aligned with laws of the universe.

Abundance for you! 🙂




Intuition vs Programs

Kind of Thoughts

Intuition and Programs

Intuition is a voice that has the same language than a thought.

Now a thought is a complex system of entities and might come from other sources than our own intuition. Pay attention to discern between external thoughts and intuitive ones.

Non and Organic thoughts

Lets say that in order to communicate with ourselves it is important to understand if the thoughts we are having are organic or not. When they are not organic they cause a sense of inner discomfort by means of sadness, anger, shame, repression and other bad feelings.

When thoughts are organic they are subtle, coherent with ourselves and usually the sense of truth that comes with is key to believe and act on it,

All the thoughts that are organic are a truth representation of what we think, feel and overall what we really are without any filter.  Imagine if you could be transparent as water with yourself and you could understand who you are clearly. That is Awesome! How much aligned would you feel?

In opposition with so much manipulation and brainwashing happening nowadays the gap that is created put us away of our inner sense of identity.


Our truth thoughts are a reflect of Intuition. To discern each thought is a reflection of us we must pay attention of the emotion that comes with by a process of asking.

What is the emotion attached to the thought?

If emotion is overall good it might come from your Intuition. That is a reflection of you and that is great!

If emotion is overall bad, identify and accept the emotion and proceed to ask:

Where does this thought comes from? Where have I experienced this same emotion before?

It will redirect you back to some point in the past. (and from here you are ready for healing)

This process of healing goes on by questioning until you reach a rock bottom where you failed to accept yourself. At this point you add energetically your love and acceptance and heal.

By revisiting the past as I theoretically demonstrated you go back and heal yourself and the emotion previously felt as bad is replaced by love in the moment that emotion was created.

Beyond the healing process.

After the process of healing the Intuition voice is reflected with transparency.

To heal is very important because programmed thoughts difuse intuition voice and what happens is  the sensation of having two voices in our head and usually one contradicts the another. Sometimes three or more voices inside.

Reminds me mental health patients that suffer from bipolarity and schizophrenia when what happens is a mix of voices uncleared within the self. Sadly they are not aware of the dynamic and our public health system is not prepared enough to deal with energy healing. Medication will never treat then but avoid and postpone. Simple as I can explain to you dear reader mental health problems is just a matter of confusion that needs clearing by a process of Healing. This  work is like clearing the pathway in the neurons of our brain.

I wish you truly good luck, in this world is a rule to program thoughts on other people without consciously being aware of it.


Stay tuned!




(non-) Organic thoughts!

I started this website to understand what the hell is not okay with me.

I just started off with one aspect of my soul which I was suppressing.

Self rejection.

I suppressed the desire to write.

I couldn’t  write for this Website, which by all means is just how I want to fulfil my desire.

And I think to my self…

1. Why I would be resistant to write a post that is against my own self desires?

2.  Shouldn’t I be happy, willing and motivated to write a post which is really the fulfilment of my dream?

3.  Why do I then feel resistant, oppressive and denied?

…What is wrong or not okay?

The Solution is Awareness

The solution is to be aware of who these thoughts come from! I found my mother’s thoughts were rambling in my head.

It happens that I have grown up in a home where my mother was neglected as a child and she taught her programme. Now an independent man I find myself neglecting myself.

I do it by denying my wishes, denying my wants and desires. I neglect my self by avoiding and quite refusing to achieve my dreams. Maybe because I feel undeserving.

Look, this is an Illusion for myself. A group of thoughts that have been working for a long period in my life. I have realised this pattern and can give it a path to clear myself from these thoughts that are not mine.

So it happens that I auto-rejected myself not because I wanted to but because I have learned how to perform this routine automatic and unconsciously.

I am grateful for being now aware of the reason I reject my self.

A natural thoughts would be I love to achieve my wishes and desires

It is always better to know the true and start to release the pain for self healing.

Self journey is nothing more than finding the organic thoughts, those come from soul.